I want to win
Why do you need to win? Why can’t you just enjoy a game for fun? You throw the cards in the air, they land randomly, and it’s all washed away. It isn’t significant.
If you want to win, remember well, the loss is inevitably coming.
I don’t care what the world thinks, but I want my friends/teammates to understand me
It’s most painful to be misunderstood by the ones you love.
1) If there is a “you” to be understood, this is still the existing ego.
2) Why still the need for the “other”? Can you not be sufficient unto yourself? Even with other people, you are still alone together. Together alone.
I’m emotionally affected by the environment around me
It’s funny. I’m a trained musician, but when there are poor musicians who can’t keep time, I find myself unable to ignore them. I lose my own beat.
I don’t know what to do about this except be aware of it. Any negative vibes/moods I pick up quickly dissipate these days. Recharging by the ocean and the trees helps too.
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