often, when I’m not playing dota, I just feel this love overflowing
is it too early for a team review?
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I love Timber Hearth. He’s like the perfect blend between Hufflepuff, Ravenclaw, and Gryffindor.
Hufflepuffs are my favorite, not wamen. They are the easiest to get along with. They LIKE getting along. A lot of people really just don’t like getting along, even if they think they do.
Ravenclaws have an analytical mind, but as the quintessential Ravenclaw, I find playing with other Ravenclaws unbearable.
Gryffindors are your “people persons.” My ideal composition is actually me + 3 hufflepuffs + one gryffindor for the team morale.
I’ve been joking (but my jokes are always serious), that I like people who don’t talk. I think this made Timber Hearth self-conscious and he asked if he was talking too much.
Bruv, you are perfect! You are so necessary for the team dynamic. Keep doing you.
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After my unrequited love, Ark, I think stonks is the next-closest candidate for someone I could play dota with without saying anything. Probably no more than the occasional pings, “back”, and “go” could be sufficient.
Someone in rd2l was talking about coordination the other day. His idea of coordination was someone making a call and the other people listening to it.
My ideal coordination is everyone seeing the same thing, and thinking the same thing, without saying anything.
It honestly feels wrong to say anything about how I feel about stonks. Because if you say it, it becomes awkward and unnatural. And words are pitifully inadequate to convey feelings, anyway. (The tao that is said is not the real tao.)
But I don’t believe in leaving things unsaid, or leaving things undone, anymore. Be open, do what you can, when the moment is there. Because once the moment is gone, it will not come back. #a new me
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For someone that didn’t actually want to play with me (bro you weren’t falling to gronaldo, get over it <3), Ryan has been more tolerant than what one could’ve hoped for. Usually if someone goes into something with an opinion/attitude, it’s very difficult to turn around from that negative influence.
But he’s been a great teammate. Sharing ideas, not negative in losing (very important to me. being able to lose = character, don’t @ me), and fun to play with.
Ryan, I appreciate your attitude, and hope that we will get closer and closer as the season goes on.
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Steil (Neil?) reminds me of when I used to play games for fun. Like when you’re young at an amusement park. You want to go on the rides, eat the food, see the fireworks.
It’s not that Steil is like that, but he’s like-that-adjacent. Playing games for so long, you start doing it out of habit, or as an intellectual exercise, or for some misplaced competitiveness/ambition. You forget that you’re supposed to be doing things for fun.
Admittedly, my main motivation is not fun, and I know it. This season, I’m really trying to break the bonds of “karma”, so to speak. I’m trying to consciously put my energy into dota/rd2l/this team, see what happens, and then drop it all at the end.
I’ve been playing games my whole life.. it’s time to break the pattern and move on 🙂
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My wish for Steil and team, is that the season will be enjoyable and fun, regardless of battlefield results. I wish that life, also, will be full of joy.
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