So last night I lost my first inhouse of the recent games. It produced a mild case of that ‘discontented’ feeling. That kind that disturbs your sleep; the doubt, the questioning… the counterfactual regret…. where were the mistakes? was it my fault? will my teammates be unsatisfied with me?
Now, I am a robot with some training and experience, so it was only a mild case. But it served as a reminder: If you take pleasure in the win, there will be displeasure in the loss. And this ‘duality’ is no longer just a religious theory, but for me I can see that it is fact. As much a fact as lightness and darkness are not two things, but one.
So… is it possible to play, to enjoy, without wading in this insanity? Or is it an intrinsic part of the game, and the only way out is not to play?
… So that’s #2.
#1 is the energy cost.
I recently had a new understanding of the “sublimation” of energy. I realized that it’s not as complicated as the fancy term seems.
It’s like how before light and electromagnetism were understood, the ancients had to explain things in metaphor. It was due to a poverty of language.
But now, even physics is saying that all things are actually the same energy. “Matter”, in a sense, doesn’t actually exist.
Likewise, all of one’s energy can be used in different activities. You can spend it all sexually, or if you have moved somewhat up Maslov’s ladder… you can spend it on intellectual, artistic, or spiritual pursuits. But it is all the same energy. Terms like “sublimation” are unnecessarily mystifying, at least to the ignorant. Once you understand it, then it’s utilitarian to have a term.
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Shall we do a pre-scout sheet? I’ve had an idea to do one for a week or so… but I felt that, if I mention that there are some people I would like to draft, how would that make others feel? (glad)
So I put it off.
But if I omit someone, understand it can also be my respect for you. If you would like some space, and to be left alone, then that is fine.
Anyway, yada yada I know I’m losing my readers. It wasn’t meant for you!
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I’ve been thinking about “categories” of players this season
PMA but actually
Smashe, Jabinskiz, TheMantis, Zoompa, TimberHearth, Mooshack, YungBuck, Woh, Mappo, Miyu, AwfulWaffle Predict?
I love positive people, without malice. To me there is the ‘false’ positive, maybe outwardly bubbly. But a sign of true positivity to me is not wishing ill on anyone else. Emotional resilience probably comes with it too. These are the lights of the world. I love to have them. They’re probably mostly hufflepuffs.
High MMR players who must carry me
As a category, everyone needs to draft high mmr players. Every high mmr player is kind of automatically draftable by default, and then you have to have reasons to exclude them.
Kind of superfluous to name names.. big lou, slowz, hobo, yfu, pattern, acidrain, polo, simple.. etc.
I’d be looking to draft any of them, as a matter of course.
Cool kids I haven’t gotten to play with yet
Everyone wants to be friends with the cool kids. Clare, scrub (I’d probably regret it before week 0), hanmingzyy, yfu, big lou, ink, maybe princess? buck
It’s like collecting pokemon. I haven’t had the honor yet!
Value players
I don’t think I’d go value-hunting as a strategy this season, but it’s still something to keep in mind.
Doomcow, Princess, how’s poncho this season? Did Chowmains un-wash?
Welcome Low MMR supports
You’re going to have some low mmr players, and everyone really just wants someone they can work with
Dang Buck is in a lot of categories.
Like the high mmrs, everyone is kind of included by default here. You need a reason to be left out, for me.
Fun, friendly players for the team vibe
Usually gryffindors or a hybrid mix. I’ve never actually played with Princess but I imagine he’s fun to play with, or maybe his dota personality is way different from discord personality.. which is the case a lot of times. TimberHearth is pretty fun to play with. Probably most of the ZQ associates are.
One avoid category – substance users while playing
Nothing wrong with it, but it’s like being sober when everyone else is drunk, you know?
A song for eli: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Ejga4kJUts
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